i need to make an appointment to see my specialist. this sucks. i hate how my body is. no one wants to come near me because of how i am. and it's horrible. the only person i want close and i can't because i'm disgusting. maybe all these problems are because i've gained weight...i don't know. they only arose when i fucked him. and i hate it. no, i don't have an std, i have something else. and i don't know what it is. i just want it to be gone, but it won't...all because i procrastinated when i thought the problem had gone away...i'm just that fucking dumb. i've let a problem get worse...again...and its ruined the part of my life that i want. my life is fine, except for that part.
i'm probably not going to get an appointment with the specialist till next year. i just want my problem to be sorted. i am calling tomorrow and making an appointment and i'm going to get this sorted...aimee wants to 69 once again