i don't feel happy anymore. i don't know why, all i know is that my mind is playing with me again and things that should make me happy, aren't. i'm not okay. and with our conversation last night, it's just shattering my heart; slowly and painfully. and i don't like that.
things haven't been right between us for so long, and you know you're everything i want right now, and i know that the same for you, but if i'm not 100% what you want, then you should leave right now. i don't want my heart to be broken slowly, i'd rather it just shattered on the spot. i love you like there's no tomorrow, but i know i'm only your friend. things will never be right between us. we don't work as just friends, but we don't work as anything more. i want you. i want you in my life. i just don't know.