i feel so stressed right now and it really sucks.
looking at moving out and to a new place, and 
with mcdonald's shitty hours, i'm going to be 
unable to pay my way for a while. i think cait is
feeling the stress, and i know that it is all my 
fault for quitting my job at new world. i hate it. i
hate myself. it's my fault that we're stuck in this

mess and there is nothing i can do about it. i 

can try getting more hours, but no one at work

wants to give theirs up. no one at all. i want to 

work; even if if means split shifts - i'll do it. i just

need those hours. i wish i never did all the 

stupid things i did. my mother was right... :(