i hate how i screwed up my life. i've made so many wrong decisions. i came out when i shouldn't have. i dropped out of high school. i quit my job. i dropped out of polytech. i'm just a huge fuck up. all i've ever done is brought misery to those around me. people think i'm pathetic. i know for a fact that you have called me pathetic. i'm kinda dating your sister, so i know things. i just hate how i get judged for everything i do. i'm young and have no qualifications. i was brought up in an abusive household and my personality reflects that. i have scars up my wrists and i'm ashamed of them. i'm just thinking up of more and more reasons to hate you and more and more reasons to hate myself. every time i think of you i begin to hate myself even more. you always know exactly how to point out my flaws, and how to make it hurt. if only there was a way to do the same thing to you.