i don't even know what to write anymore. i come home in a shit mood every fucking day. i hate my job. i hate the people there. i hate being told what to do every five seconds. i hate going to work. when i sit on the train, i often hope that it derails and causes huge injury.

i'm fucked up in the head.i can sit for ten minutes, and the next thing you know, i'm verging on crying. i don't know why. it sucks. i just wish i could crawl into a bed and have someone hold me while i cry. it would be nice.